“The word sea-change is from Shakespeare, from The Tempest: a man is thrown into the sea, and under the water he is transformed from what he was into something entirely new, something '“rich and strange”.
This is the story of my sea-change - the journey from one way of living to another. It’s also an invitation to a sea-change of your own. No matter your age, your gender, your season of life, no matter your politics or profession, your sexuality or your faith tradition, you are invited into a sea-change.
Years ago, a wise friend told me that no one ever changes until the pain level gets high enough. That seems entirely true. The inciting incident for life change is almost always heartbreak - something becomes broken beyond repair, too heavy to carry; in the words of the recovery movement, unmanageable.
And in my current sea-change, my disconnectedness from my soul and from the people I care most about has become so painful that I’m willing to remake the whole of my life.”
~ Passage from ‘Present Over Perfect’ by Shauna Niequest
I’m back from holidays. It’s been an interesting few weeks. The time for self-care was much needed. In fact, it was needed more than I care to admit. I mostly slept and did little at all for the first four days. I hadn’t realised the level of my exhaustion.
That’s the thing about holidays. It’s a chance to remove yourself entirely from all the busyness and the noise (that has become mostly the norm) in order to hear yourself think and to listen to your body and what your heart is telling you.
So anyway, I had the most wonderful, unplugged, restful and restorative time. And I spent no time thinking of business or busyness. I put that all down and just immersed myself in the present. And Brooms Head is the perfect place for that. It’s a yet unspoiled, non-commercialised, hidden jewel among beach holiday destinations (I hope it stays that way). It’s the perfect place to reconnect with who you are and the natural world. And I intend to continue the yearly tradition so that I may reflect on what’s important and to recalibrate my life.
The Important Things
When you remove all the noise and really listen, it’s like you’re listening for the first time. You go to sleep with the soothing sounds of waves gently crashing onto the shore, or the gentle rain (sometimes it was pelting rain).
Some nights I fell asleep to friends and children talking and laughing as they continued into the night, catching up on each others lives…slow, deliberate conversation and general banter; competitive voices as board games were being played, shared meals, and lingering around the communal table with drinks and nibblies, with yet more laughter and conversation.
Each morning I woke up, made myself a cuppa, took my camp chair and sat on the edge of the bank, watching the sun still rising over the ocean and listening to the waves and the birds, and the sounds of people in the camp site, slowly waking to the new day.
Days were filled with beach exploration, short walks, photographing native plants, wildflowers, wildlife and the odd sunset or sunrise, lazy lunches and more stopping for chats and conversations, and time for reflection and contemplation.
It was a chance to empty myself of the busyness and pressure of a life filled with pushing, expectations, deadlines and striving. A chance to be me, to listen, to observe, connect and to feel joy, wonder and contentment in each moment.
A chance to truly tune in to the important things.
Stepping Back from Business
During my much needed rest, I gained immense clarity about where my life is. This has led to some life-changing decisions. Turning fifty next year has also had me contemplating what I want to do and who I want to be for the next half of my life. All I know is that in the second half of my life, there is only time for the important things that bring me joy.
These decisions have been truly considered, as so many things over the past three to four years have led me to this point. I hadn’t realised how much busyness and disconnection have crept into my life (all self-induced) until only recently.
One major tipping point has been my health and fitness. For those who have known me longer than three or more years, they will know how integral that my health, fitness and vitality is to who I am. And it’s suffering to the point that I can no longer ignore the warning signs. Along with my health, my family have suffered in the process of me striving.
So I will be stepping back from my business forthwith to rest and recover. I will be seeing out the remainder of the year completing my client projects and commitments, and wrapping up what I need so that I can focus on my health and my family.
As for my future and that of my business, I’m not making any further decisions about that until I’ve sufficiently recovered. I just need to rest and to give myself the time to regain my health. If you need to access my blogs and posts and information on video training, everything will still be here.
Thank you all for your support and I want to encourage you to pursue whatever it is you feel is important to you. All of our journeys are so different. One is no more important than anothers’ - it’s just different. And it’s your life to live however you choose.
Much love and gratitude…
Kerry :) x